Let me introduce myself

In 2019, I had no clue I was losing my hair. The only indication that something was amiss came from a hairstylist who suggested I take biotin because my "locs could be thicker."

I did as he recommended and assumed all was well because my hair seemed to be just fine.

Fast forward to 2021. I was extremely stressed out by my job and I had to have major surgery in September. There’s nothing quite like the prospect of death to give you a newfound perspective on life. If I made it through, I swore I would figure out ways to welcome more ease and joy.

My surgery was successful, and when I recovered, I made all the changes I promised myself. I left the company I founded 20 years ago to start a new one. I got myself into therapy to deal with some longstanding trauma. I let go of relationships that weren't serving my highest good. I completed a 12-week HIIT program to kick my fitness into high gear. And I learned modern calligraphy for fun.

To mark this moment in a time as a meaningful turning point – a fresh start, if you will – I shed my locs, which I'd worn for 20 years, for a teeny-weeny afro.

Then in January of 2022, I noticed two bald spots at the front of my head.

The fear of going bald eclipsed every anxiety about my previous stressors combined. Panicked, I saw a dermatologist who diagnosed me with alopecia areata. I was prescribed a topical steroid, but it did nothing to prevent those bald spots from spreading. When I told him it wasn't working, he failed to offer any other treatment or provide an answer for why my scalp had started to burn like it was on fire.

I quickly moved on.

Dermatologist #2 diagnosed me with possible alopecia areata, androgenic alopecia, and central centrifugal cicatricial alopecia (CCCA). Being uncomfortable with that level of uncertainty, I requested he do a scalp biopsy, which confirmed I had CCCA – the worst of the diagnoses.

My journey with CCCA has been difficult. I cannot put it any other way. Hair loss is hard enough to contend with on its own, but the pain of CCCA is unlike anything I’ve experienced in my life. When I'm in a flare, it feels like someone stuck dozens of hot sewing needles in my head at once. The pain lasts not just hours or days, but weeks at a time.

I’ve done everything I can to manage the pain – medical treatments, nutritional modifications, herbs and supplements, acupuncture, mindfulness meditation, and positive visualization. And, while it's no longer debilitating most days, I still have flares that take me down.

And I’m one of the lucky ones. I have health insurance, access to good health care, and the time and means to experiment with hair products, practitioners, and alternative therapies that might bring relief. Knowing how agonizing the pain is, I worry about Black women who don't, because this disease almost exclusively affects us.

That’s why I launched this newsletter. Through this vehicle, I share my experiences with CCCA so other Black women – Black trans women, Black femmes, and nonbinary folk who relate to the experiences of Black women – will know they aren’t alone. And, I offer learnings, insights, tips, and resources that other Black women might find helpful.

If you or someone you love is living with CCCA, I invite you to join me on this journey by subscribing to my newsletter. Let's navigate the complexities of CCCA together.

Wishing you grace on this journey,

Lisa

Disclaimer: I am a Black woman living with central centrifugal cicatricial alopecia who shares thoughts, stories and ideas with other Black women navigating this condition for informational purposes only. I’m not a doctor or licensed or certified professional, therefore nothing in my posts – explicit, implicit, by implication, or in reference – is intended to constitute, or be a substitute or replacement for, licensed, professional, medical care. Always seek the advice of your dermatologist or other qualified provider with any questions you have regarding your health, CCCA, and treatments for CCCA, be they medical or otherwise, and before making any decisions about your health care. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read in my posts.